You're People. I’m Not by Maria Malinovskaya
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Based on the private conversations with a career criminal and headlines at the time ✉ Shall I write here? ✉ I'm cooking dinner. Later. But in the meantime - I served in Afghanistan in the KGB troops, then I was a bandit, was imprisoned for robbery for 9 years. After that I don’t fucking care. Is it clear? ✉ But what should I’ve done? Join the cops? My childhood friend is a bodyguard. I tell him: are you stupid? Taking bullets for someone else's body. Smart, huh? I'm more serious than you think. I don't care about you if you don’t care about me. You asked for help. I'm ready. But this is my time. ✉ I became a bandit because I had always wanted to be one and actually always was. Literally and figuratively. You won't understand. It’ll take too long to explain. ✉ I was chased by three police squads when I was on the run. I didn't know then that my former fellow soldiers had worked there all their lives. Now I know. So now you tell yourself who you are. I know who I am. 🔍 a schoolteacher became a bandit to be the center of attention a child became a bandit at birth one might say by the calling a Prosecutor became a bandit a rector of a private University became a bandit of course you’d want to know how he killed a high-ranking security officer became a bandit after breaking up with a girl what did he decide to take revenge for? a mouse became a bandit / Tom and Jerry in Minecraft / and that saved him 🔍 Sergei also became a bandit because of poverty because of his father's tyranny because of his nationality because of the Soviet system and its attitude toward people because of the frequent arrests then he immigrated to Turkey and died there from poverty 🔍 a 48-year-old man suddenly became a bandit a man who dreamed of becoming an imam became a bandit a Lithuanian was a speaker then became a bandit And I became one, I want to kill the person who raped me, and everyone who allowed this to happen. That's how you raised me. The Dream Interpretation Dictionary Became a bandit. Interpretation of dreams for free Mom I became a bandit / ok.ru Dad I became a bandit...††† | vk.com 🔍 to survive in Russia to survive in prison to survive in the army to survive in Kazan to survive in Novosibirsk to survive in Moscow to survive in old age ✉ I ran away, more than once. From the cops and from the prison. I'm not an ordinary guy. I’m not a slave. I can't be forced to take orders. Read books about real people. Smart, proud, brave, kind and become one yourself. Free. ✉ Kill your husband. Somewhere Machiavelli says, I do not remember exactly, but something like: If a person does not understand from the first moment what is required of him, he should not be persuaded – he should be killed. In context, of course. ✉ During the escape I walked 100 km in the taiga, it rained for 3 days, the end of August, cold. It was extremely difficult to understand where you were. But I came out exactly where I had planned. Then I also thought that someone or something had helped me. I think so now. I suspect, anyway. But I don't believe in anything. 🔍 the fugitive was a 42-year-old repeat offender who had been in prison for 20 years his term was due to expire this year 🔍 in Kamyshin a murderer is wanted in Khabarovsk a murderer is wanted a murderer and arsonist is wanted in Ufa (UPDATED) he’s been hiding for almost a month in the heating duct next to the half-decomposed corpse in a hut in a forest plantation in his friend’s apartment Freak go to execution !!! +7 in Dagestan under a false name while his brother is an Interior Ministry employee pressured witnesses Abolishment of the death penalty is a sign of civilization? Then what do you do with rabid animals? + 4 🔍 the prisoner escaped from the Vologda prison by helicopter but was free for just a few hours 🔍 in the Vladimir region a murderer is wanted in Moscow a murderer is wanted who cut off the victim's limbs and genitals Cartoon "You're wanted". In the topic "Police." Comics, cartoons. 🔍 the prisoner escaped from the prison to visit his mother's grave in Aktobe 🔍 on the Don they put on trial the murderer who had been on the run for 54 years The new photo montage: Putin on the run: Charter’97: News from Belarus be on the run: to be trying to avoid being caught, especially by the police (Cambridge dictionary) in the deep taiga for three years hiding in the cellars of the city of Chusovogo for a day in Lida and Lida district but then he came to the police himself He needs to be hanged not imprisoned. In such creatures nothing is sacred. Reply Angel +1 🔍 in Tuva a murderer is wanted 🔍 from a maximum security prison in the Vinnytsa region six criminals escaped led by a dangerous recidivist they dug a 30-meter hole under the wall of a workshop that was idle due to problems with the employment of prisoners 🔍 in the Ivanovo region a murderer is wanted the police are after me prank / will the guy give me in for a million / cruel prank 🔍 for ten days the police of the Kama River region are searching for a 60-year-old killer who escaped from a mental hospital on Bannaya mountain he will still be caught cornered like a hare somewhere to starve and freeze and sooner or later he’ll have to surface ✉ A book about me? It's too early to sum up. I have big plans. Like everyone else, right? I'm not interested in a legal business. I need an illegal one. I know a lot, why do I need an ad? ✉ You're young. I'm not. There's a lot you don't know yet. They'll find me and kill me immediately. I'm dangerous. Forget about me. I can find anyone. Therefore, others also. I am well-read, with the training of a saboteur, I am capable of levelling a city. I’m of "moral character". But only I think so. Others are different. You'll suffer too. Never meddle in a case where there's even the slightest threat. I'm trained and you're not. You're a child. I have plans. Where everything is thought out. ✉ No books about me, I’m telling you. I don’t play games. Such a gamble is serious. I’ve got 5 cats. If something happens, they will die without me. Young, I picked up their mother on the street, she died. They are like children for me. Children, indeed. That’s it. ✉ Kill, and you’ll find out. Writers write about what they’ve undergone themselves, don’t they? 🔍 a psychologist commented on the murder of a teacher by a student the contract killer spoke about his work and commented on his latest murder the minister of social protection spoke about his work and commented on his last murder listen to music ad-free a scantily dressed girl attacked Patriarch Cyril at … The Primate of the Russian Orthodox Church didn’t react in any way a child is stealing: how to react correctly - I'm a happy MOM my son is a bandit my husband is a bandit my father is a bandit my brother is a bandit male bandit, who are you? Other results from the woman.ru site the first one’s husband was hanged in front of her in the apartment they raped her in turns she was pregnant and after all gave birth the child has weak eye muscles they basically spill out she lives in poverty and is afraid to accept help she’s afraid that it will happen to us the second for the sake of sold off her parents' property to now he and she the girls and I our old things with food she has nothing to buy clothes with 🔍 “Become a bandit: the risks are the same, but the income is greater”: Annual results in the Russian economy 🔍 my son wants to become a police officer help me change his mind, nothing good will come of it Russia of the 21st century: bandits protected by police officers my son wants to become a priest tell me what to do! bandits from the Russian Orthodox Church Results: approximately 315 000 (0,45 sec.) bandit bandit 🔍 bandit - horrible in short how can I dissuade him?? - There’s no way, you should have brought him up better Like +1 Comment Complain - If he gets his act together and catches up to the professionals in time he’ll succeed since I was 13 years old I've been running around the country had some ups and downs a spear in the liver a 9 mm in the forehead and on the hairpin turn jumping out of the careening car four hours hanging on my hands clambered and the roots of mountain plants worse than nettles... nah got out unharmed and when I got married went straight but in those 7 years I managed to get my fill and live it up ✉ Childhood was like yours. Everyone’s. Was the best in my class. Got arrested and went to juvie. Why the fuck do you need this? And I? ✉ Twice I loved. It all didn’t work out. I hope it won't happen again. God forbid. ✉ Have a mother. But for 25 years she worked in the prosecutor's office, then in the city administration. All my relatives are like that. Only I'm normal. ✉ I was born that way. There was no turning point. I'm a romantic, I said. And you are people. I'm not. You're you and I'm me. It’s always been like that. And always will. One friend, a police colonel, said when she found out I was in prison: "Everyone makes mistakes". To which I replied: "I made a mistake, I got caught." ✉ One of the greats said: "I can't teach you anything, I can only help you learn". Man himself must learn. Everything must be tried, felt. You live only once. You need to know everything. Or you will be a slave of one who knows. 🔍 an ex-con can’t go back to normal life can’t return home to Crimea can’t start a new life because of his USSR citizenship can’t get social housing in most cases can’t come back to his place of residence because it turns out that his family sold that property CONSCRIPTION TV: “70% of crimes are committed by previous convicts, that’s such a troubled category of people, primarily those having domestic problems and problems in being employed”. a parolee in Samara opened fire next to the car / left the body / an ex-con started a crack house in Pervouralsk local news … and gambled away his victim’s car / SuperOmsk stole the gold / from prison / with a shotgun at the citizens / an ex-con / and burned a perforator / at the railway station Perm-2 (18+) / hijacked to buy / coming out / was burning / a drink a tool valued at 33.4 thousand rubles / pawned 🔍 Ex-convicts have the most difficulty in finding a job – The National Enquirer An ex-con is running for president: Rejoice, O young man, in thy youth got released in 2005 with an expired passport I have only Mom no money no clothing in short I have shit nowhere to live no friends as well without a residency permit I’m fined a new passport isn’t issued without a residency permit couldn’t adapt on the outside tried to shoot his family and was killed raped a nine-year-old girl attacked a twenty-year-old passer-by with a knife beat drinking companion to death OUR PRISONS TURN US INTO ANIMALS OUR PRISONS TURN US INTO ANIMALS OUR PRISONS TURN US INTO ANIMALS 🔍 Us and others: ex-convicts. belpressa.ru beaten in a cell the day before receiving clemency hanged in the toilet of his cell the day before his release opened his veins the day before getting out attacked a prison guard with a screwdriver died of old age a few days before the end of his prison term ✉ I’m disconnecting from facebook. No people here. Interesting for me at least. Ordinary. Good-bye. You’re too small for this. Translated by Sergei Tseytlin |
Maria Malinovskaya was born in Gomel (Belarus). She is PhD-student in Contemporary Poetry Studies at The National Academy of Sciences of Belarus and an author of two books. The first one, a documentary poetry project and collection Kaimaniya (2020), is based on authentic speech of people suffering from mental disorders. The second one, The Movement of Hidden Colonies (2020), includes both lyrical and documentary poems, such as those from her most recent documentary poetry project that is based on testimonies of French–Ivorian clashes survivors. Malinovskaya’s poetry has been published in numerous anthologies and magazines and translated into English, Spanish, Italian, Ukrainian, Lithuanian, Belarusian and Polish. She is a participant of The European Poetry Festival (UK), The Nordic Poetry Festival (Norway), the annual festival of sound-art and contemporary poetry Poetronica (Russia). She lives in Belarus and Russia.
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